First of all, I’m home. Nothing exciting to report. The hospital trip was a waste of time. All the doctors accomplished was to dump my INR into the toilet so now I have to give myself shots in the tummy twice a day. @@
Anyway, that’s not why I’m writing. It’s my mom. She’s not doing so well. 😦 I won’t go into details because I know she wouldn’t want me to, but suffice it to say she’s not progressing as we’d hoped. And she’s refusing to get out of bed, even though the doctors are telling her it’s the best way to start healing. She has an NG tube in, isn’t allowed to eat, has crazy diarrhea, and sounds very down. The doctor said he would try to have her out of the hospital by Christmas, but couldn’t make any promises. At the rate she’s going, I would not be surprised if she is not out by then. And regardless, she’s made the decision to not come up for Christmas. And so has my sister (which I totally support, but it still sucks). Not one member of my immediate family will be here for Christmas (Brother and SIL were already not coming because of his work schedule). It sucks. I know we can celebrate any time of year and it’s not about the day but being with family, but I still hate it. And everyone keeps telling me all this stuff about how it’s no big deal, but not one person seems to really understand how upsetting this is to me. It’s my mom. She’s always taken care of me. And not once have I spent Christmas away from her.
I don’t think I can attend my extended family’s celebrations without crying. But I don’t want to disappoint them either. I think we may spend Christmas Eve with them, then go to MIL’s on Christmas Day. And I’ll probably try to go down to see my mom as soon after Christmas as I can. Also, N and I are going to try to go see her this weekend. We’d go sooner, but I don’t want him to miss any more PT (he’s missed twice because of me). I just want to see my mom. 😦
Please pray for her. She could use a lot of them.