Of course, my heart always picks the most inconvenient times to act up. 😦
Those who have been following along know that right as I was getting ready to start fertility drugs to harvest my eggs for our surrogacy journey my atrial lead broke. I was still able to do the egg retrieval, but then I had to have my LV lead repositioned right about when we had our first ultrasound scheduled. Then it didn’t work (the LV lead) and I had to go in again right at Christmas to get the lead placed epicardially. With it finally working I thought I’d get back to feeling as good as I did before the first lead broke. No such luck. After trying and trying for months to figure out why I still feel like crap we finally have answers. Apparently I’m having a lot of atrial disturbances that are not picked up by my ICD. So my EP wants to start me on a new med.
Sounds easy enough, right? Wrong. I have to be admitted into the hospital for 72 hours for observation while it’s being started. 😦 But I have 2 month old twins now. How am I supposed to be away from them for 72 hours?? I can’t stand the thought of being away for 4 hours, how am I going to do this?! My mom says to look on the bright side. I might catch up on sleep. But I doubt it. Even if the nurses leave me alone, I’m sure I’ll hear the babies in my sleep and wake up looking for them. 😦 I’m going crazy just thinking about it. 😦 And of course N will have to take care of the twins and won’t be able to be with me. He said he’ll only bring them up for short visits because he doesn’t want to disturb the other patients. I understand it, but I don’t like it. 😦
I’m scheduled to go in Sept. 1-3. My cardiologist is presenting my case to a team of doctors on Monday. I’m hoping one of them gives a solution that doesn’t require hospital time. 😦