A group of friends and I have decided to start a monthly blog circle of letters to our children. Here is my contribution.
Dear Kyla and Lucas,
You are 4 months shy of being 4 years old. How is that possible? You are growing so fast and I want to relish every moment. The thought of the days when I won’t get to be with you all day every day terrify me. Yes, I occasionally need a break, but when I’m away from you for very long I am left with a hole in my being that can only be filled by the two of you.
Kyla, you and I butt heads a LOT lately. It makes me dread the teenage years, but at the same time I look forward to seeing the woman you will become. You know exactly who you are and aren’t afraid to express your opinion. You let everyone around you know exactly how you are feeling. You had been rather shy for quite some time, but in the last few weeks I’ve seen you come out of your shell. You’re branching out and playing with others, rather than watching from the sidelines. It both thrills me to see this, and makes me sad that you’re not sticking to me like glue as you used to. I love the extreme joy you express when your happy, even when it is often flipped on its head by your extreme anger and/or frustration if things don’t go the way you want them to. In so many ways, you are just like me (sorry about that). It thrills me that I have the opportunity to see your personality develop and grow. Please know that no matter how frustrated I may get from time to time, I love you always, always.
Lucas, my heart belongs to you. You can melt me with a simple snuggle, a “Mom, I love you,” or a giggle. My heart breaks when you are scared, which seems to be a lot lately. I wish I knew how to calm your fears. I pray that you know how loved you are. You are so incredibly amazing. You’re smart, and funny, and so much like your dad. Daddy says he doesn’t see it, but I’m not talking about looks. I’m talking about your sense of humor, your compassion for others, your ability to see patterns and remember things you’ve only seen or heard once. You stun me. I love seeing you learn. You don’t want to spend a lot of time on something, but only because it doesn’t take long for you to figure it out and move on. I know it won’t be long before you are reading on your own because you want it so badly. I only hope I am the right teacher to get you there. I want only the best for you. You are my best buddy.
The two of you are at a point where you both love each other and drive each other crazy. There are times that I watch you and see the twinkle in your eyes when you’re doing something you know will bug your sibling. But you can also be incredibly sweet together. I know you will always love and protect each other.
Kids, you are my joy. I love you with all my heart and cannot imagine a life without you in it. Your hugs renew me. Your smiles and laughter light my life. You are my Sunshine and Texas Rose forever.
Happy Valentine’s everyone!! And please go check out the beautiful Valentine’s letter my friend Carrie wrote to her children as well.