09.26.09

Surgery with a side of stress

Posted in doctor's appts., husband, stress at 9:54 am by heartjourney

N went to a different neurosurgeon on Wednesday because we found out that his insurance will pay 100% of the hospital bill if he does it at the hospital for which he works. That surgeon said he was surprised N is even walking with as much constriction as he has. He sent him for another MRI (with contrast this time) to rule out the 1% chance that it is cancer or a tumor instead of a bone fragment (it’s not). He was told not to work and not to lift so much as a jug of milk until after surgery. Which has made taking care of the twins interesting. I can put them in his lap, but he can’t pick them up at all.

We went back to the surgeon’s office yesterday to have him look at the new MRI and to discuss the surgery. He wants it done as soon as possible. He’s not able to squeeze him in next week, but he said he would stay late to do it the following week if that’s what it takes. We’re waiting to hear from the scheduler to find out if surgery will be Oct. 6 or 8 and what time.

The doctor showed us what he will do and said the surgery will only take 45 minutes to an hour. He’ll stay one night at the hospital. The first 3 weeks he still will have a 5 pound weight limit. At that point it will go up to 15 pounds. So he still may not be able to lift the kids. And because there’s no “light duty” unless you’re injured on the job, he won’t be allowed to go back to work for three months. :o

We went by HR after the appointment to find out if N has short term disability. He does not. :( He does have long term disability, but that doesn’t kick in until after 3 months. So money is going to be reeeeeeally tight this year. And I’m pretty sure stress levels will be at a premium.

09.19.09

Our Soap Opera continues

Posted in doctor's appts., family, husband, stress at 8:50 am by heartjourney

I know, I know. You’re thinking “what now???” It’s really just a continuation, really. N went to a neurosurgeon to look at his back. He needed a more recent MRI (his last one was nearly a year ago), and he finally had that done Wednesday, then saw the doc right after. His back has actually been feeling much better recently, so what the doc said wound up being a shock.

Apparently he has a “bone fragment” that has broken off of one of his spinal discs, has “floated” down the spine, and is constricting his spinal cord. If it moves much more, the doc said it could effect his bowls, bladder, sexual performance, etc. Yikes! So pretty much his options are 1) have surgery or 2) potentially lose all feeling in his lower extremities. Of course, we’re going with option 1, though we don’t have a date set just yet. We’re trying to figure out when and where would be best. Basically, he’ll be out of commission for 4-6 weeks. No work, which means no $ (since I don’t bring in enough to pay the bills with my part time job). *sigh*

Fortunately, we do have some savings, so we won’t starve. But we were hoping that savings would be the start of a couple of college funds for the kids. I guess it’s better to feed them, for now.

09.15.09

So cute!

Posted in Parenting, babies, family, husband at 9:42 pm by heartjourney

My goodness, I have some darn cute babies! N and I are always teasing that there must have been a mix-up at the lab, because there’s no way that our genes could have made such cute babies. ;)

Just a few examples of their cuteness:

Lucas is quite the talker. He will look us straight in the eye and “talk” for quite awhile. He babbles on and on and it’s just so darn cute! I swear he sometimes says “I love you,” just without any of the consonants. LOL And that smile of his is just too adorable for words. And the way he’ll clasp his hands in front of him. :) :) :) Love it!

Kyla’s smiles involve her whole face. You can see it in the pics from my last post. And when she’s really happy, she squeals. :) Also, for some reason she only babbles to inanimate objects (her swing, the wall, the crib, the bassinet…). When she’s looking at us, she moves her mouth and looks like she’s GOING to say something, but nothing comes out! LOL This afternoon she was napping in the bassinet in our room (we’ve taken to separating them at nap time) and she woke up very happy. I sat and listened to her babble, coo, laugh, and squeal for a good 20 minutes. She’s certainly a girl of extremes. It’s either super happy, or very not! She still screams like a banshee. LOL

And we’ve been getting them to notice each other more and more. N likes to hold them so they’re looking at each other. Lucas talks to Kyla and smiles his adorable smile while she sticks her tongue out at him, trying to get him to do the same. We love watching them interact with one another!

I know it’s not always easy, and we both get frustrated multiple times a day, but I do believe that N and I are the luckiest parents in the world because we get to be the parents of these two amazing babies. :) Thank you, Lord, for trusting us with them! :)

09.11.09

3 Months

Posted in Parenting, babies, family, sleep at 9:12 am by heartjourney

I know. I’m horrible. I allowed their three month “birthday” go by without a post. My only excuse is that I’m TIRED!!!

Since I got out of the hospital the twins have decided that sleep is overrated and I really don’t need any. :/ They had been doing really well, only waking me once (to eat) before morning. Not anymore! Last night I got to bed at 10:30 (had to work on grading papers once they were in bed) and Lucas woke me at 11:30. I couldn’t get him to go back to sleep, so I took him to the guest room and laid down with him there. I may have dosed a little, but mostly he was too squirmy to sleep at all. Finally, at 2 I fed him. Just as he was finishing, his sister woke up. N took her, thank goodness. I finally got him down around 3:30 and went back to bed. He woke again at 5:30. N was in the guest room with Kyla at this point. I got a bottle together and he ate ONE ounce before falling back to sleep. Then Kyla woke up. I offered N the remaining 3 oz for her. I tried to get up to take Lucas to his room and he started to stir. So I stayed in the chair, falling asleep until 7:30. N and Kyla were clearly awake, but I still didn’t want to be. I tried puttin Lucas down in his crib and it seemed to work. Until I went back to bed and put my head on the pillow. I gave up and jut got up. I’m SO tired!

But that’s not what I got on to blog about. Really I just wanted to show off. On Wednesday I took my MIL with me to get their portraits made. They turned out really well, despite the fussy mood Lucas was in. Thank goodness for the “kid” (okay, not really a kid, but he looked really young and made me feel old) helping the photographer. He kept Kyla laughing and even got a fer smiles out of Lucas. Here they are. (And family, don’t worry. I have prints for you. Just give me a chance to get them separated and in the mail.)

Kyla - 3 Months

Kyla - 3 Months

Lucas - 3 months

Lucas - 3 months

Kyla & Lucas - 3 months

Kyla & Lucas - 3 months

And the obligatory “naked” picture (I promise, they had diapers on! lol). They may hate me for it, but I love their smiles in this one!

Kyla & Lucas

Kyla & Lucas

09.06.09

When it rains…

Posted in M.O.M., Parenting, babies, doctor's appts., emotions, family, friends, heart, husband, meds, stress at 1:39 pm by heartjourney

Well, it’s certainly been pouring around here. And I’m not just referring to the storm on Thursday night.

*****Warning- may contain “TMI” for those with sensitive stomachs.*******

Tuesday, after I’d been admitted to the hospital, N was finally able to have a bowl movement (he’d been constipated from the pain meds) and it was black and tarry. A sure sign of a GI bleed. Not only that, but his back, which seemed to be getting better, started feeling worse.

So on Wednesday morning he had his mother come over to watch the twinfants while he went to the doctor. He mentioned the stool and they drew some blood, but had to send it out to be tested. That night, he coughed until he threw up, and that too showed signs of blood. The next morning he called to tell me (yes, he waited until morning to tell me).

He couldn’t decide if he should try to get in with the GI doc the GP had recommended or go to the ER. He was afraid that the ER would make him stay overnight. He tried calling the GI doc, but the number was no longer working. By this point he had brought the twins to my hospital room and his mother had met him there. I asked him what he was going to do and he said “I’ll just wait and see if it happens again.” I was not happy with that response, but didn’t know how to make him go in. Fortunately, I didn’t have to.

He had fallen asleep on my bed when his phone rang. It was his GP’s office with his lab results. It was a fairly short conversation, but the gist of it was “Go to the ER now.” Since he was already in one hospital (a heart specialty hospital) he simply walked across the street to the main hospital and into the ER.

A friend of mine from M.O.M. was visiting at the time and she offered to stay and help with the twins so that my MIL could go with N. He argued and said he was fine on his own and wouldn’t let her come with him. She asked me what I wanted and I said I wanted someone with him. So she ate a little lunch, giving him time to get settled at the ER, then went looking for him. Again, he kicked her out. :/

At this point I’d called some other friends of mine to come help with the twins so my M.O.M. friend could get back to her twins. I got a few updates from N via text, but felt so clueless as to what was going on. I hated it. I did, however, know that they were giving him a blood transfusion and planned to admit him overnight so they could do a colonoscopy and endoscopy in the morning. My MIL volunteered to keep the twins over night. While my friends were still there, she went to the store to pick up diapers to make it through the night. At least we knew I’d be home the next day!

After everyone (including my precious babies. :( ) was gone, I felt SO restless and could not concentrate on anything at all. I called my mom to let her know what was going on and she asked “What about the dogs?” OMG, I’d completely forgotten about my dogs!! :o I felt horrible! I was able to get my college roommate, who lives only 5 minutes from us, to go over to let them out and feed them. Thank goodness my mother reminded me!

I also called N’s dad, who happened to be on the way home from work. He said he would go home to change, then head over to see N. Soon after I got a text from N saying they decided to do the endoscopy that night instead of in the morning and wanting to know if there was anyone still with me who could come get his backpack. There wasn’t, so I said I’d find someone. I didn’t think his dad would be there soon enough (turned out he was), so I called his aunt, hoping she would be close by (she works close to the hospital and passes it on the way home. Low and behold, she was on her way home and only had to take a slight detour to get to N quickly. She and N’s dad waited while they did the procedure and kept me updated, which I appreciated very much.

It turns out N has 3 ulcers, a hiatal hernia, and esopogitis. :o Dang! He was moved into a room where they gave him his second unit of blood. I felt so trapped in my hospital room. I wanted so much to be there for him, not to mention feeling overwhelmed at the circumstances surrounding the twins’ first night away from both of us. It’s a wonder I slept at all.

But I did. And I woke up to the sound of my phone notifying me of a text (well, I woke several other times, too, due to the usual hospital interruptions). It was N, saying “We could totally chat on Facepages!” lol So I got on my computer so we could talk to each other. Not sure why we didn’t just use the phone, but it was good to converse with him anyway.

My nurse (I had the same one all 4 days!) knew what was going on, so she brought me my final dose of tikosyn early so that she could do the EKG and get me discharged as quickly as possible. I don’t think I’ve ever had a discharge go that quickly! God bless her! She even walked me over to the main hospital via skybridge. Oddly enough, we ran into my EP on the way! When he heard what was going on he rolled his eyes and said, “Well, the good news is, you stayed in sinus rhythm through all that!” :/ He walked most of the way with us then went wherever he’d been headed.

I got to N’s room by 9:30 AM. His mom brought the twins and we all waited to find out what was going to happen. Poor N hadn’t had anything to eat since the morning before because he had been NPO for the endoscopy, they lifted it in the middle of the night, but then reinstated it before he could have breakfast because his blood levels were lower than they liked. :( The GI doc finally came by around noon and said as far as he was concerned, N was clear to go home that day, but it was up to his admitting doc. She came by a little later and said she wanted two more lab draws before sending him home, but did allow him to eat.

We decided I would go home with the twins and come back to get him (or his mom would) if he was released. Turns out, he was not. His blood was not where she wanted it to be, so the doc kept him one more night. I was so ready for the whole family to sleep under our own roof again!

The next morning N called to say he’d been released. He said the doc didn’t really want to, but knew he was a nurse and knew what to watch for. N’s mom picked him up and brought him home. He has to go in for a repeat endoscopy in a few weeks to check on his esophogitis and he has an appointment with a back specialist on Tuesday. Today we are all taking it easy. It’s been a really long week! I’m ready to get off this soap opera!!!

09.02.09

One night down, two to go

Posted in babies, doctor's appts., heart, husband, sleep, waiting at 8:38 am by heartjourney

Well, I survived the first night (and apparently so did N). Sadly, I think I was awakened as much, if not more, than if I’d been home with the babies. Granted, I didn’t have to get out of bed, but still. Is it really necessary to wake a patient 4 times for vitals, 1 time for an EKG, and 1 time for blood? Are these so important when you’re on a freaking heart monitor 24 hours?? And why the middle of the night for blood? It’s never made sense to me. *sigh*

Other than being bored and missing my babies, I’m doing fine. Interestingly, I have the same room and same nurse as the last time I was here! LOL I really like my nurse. She helped me (emotionally) a lot the last time I was here. I’m glad she got to meet the babies yesterday. Last night she said she wouldn’t be here today, but she’d be back Thursday. Then she walked in this morning! Apparently they called her in and she decided that since she liked her patients yesterday she’d come on in. I told her she just wanted to see me some more. ;)

The food in this hospital tends to be a step up from most hospitals. But last night I chose poorly. It was bland and I had to force myself to eat it all so that I wouldn’t be starving by morning (no one to go get me an alternative). I’m hoping someone might bring me food for lunch, but we’ll see. Last night I’d gotten the pasta salad that I loved last time I was here and it was awful. I’m hoping my other favorites haven’t gone downhill. But at least breakfast was still good. They have Southwestern Eggs Benedict. It’s an English muffin, “low sodium” ham, scrambled eggs (I’d prefer over easy, but it’s still good), topped with sour cream and salsa. Yum!

I was told I can shower. Woo hoo! So I think I’ll call in my tech and see about getting that done. Then maybe it’s time for some laps around the floor or maybe some reading? This is going by SOOO slowly! I miss my babies!!! (hopefully they will come by at some point today if N can get them out the door)